Chapter 450 — I'm an Infinite Regressor, But I've Got Stories to Tell

Chapter 450

Sim Ah-ryeon reflects on her definition of humanity, concluding that to her, a human is solely herself. She recounts a formative memory from her childhood summer vacation: finding an abandoned puppy and treating it not as a pet, but as an equal, even sleeping in the same bed and crawling on all fours to bond with it. She viewed this as an experiment to understand the nature of love and affection. When the puppy died after being hit by a car, Sim Ah-ryeon did not feel typical grief or anger; instead, she obsessively analyzed the physiological and emotional sensations of loss, treating her own sadness as a subject of scientific study. She buried the puppy and subsequently painted a portrait of it, using the intense emotion of sadness to create art. This led to a conflict when a classmate, inspired by Sim Ah-ryeon’s explanation of emotional sacrifice, attempted to kill a cat; the parent’s violent reaction and the subsequent spread of rumors about Sim Ah-ryeon being a demon only fascinated her further, reinforcing her belief that she was a distinct species incapable of communing with ordinary humans. The narrative shifts to her time with the Undertaker. She describes him as the ultimate source of emotional complexity, noting his paradoxical state of harboring suicidal impulses while simultaneously clinging to life and cherishing others. Sim Ah-ryeon found his suffering exquisite, like a delicacy, and decided to wait several years to experience the full depth of his pain. She orchestrated this by subtly manipulating his guilt over past battles, calling him a murderer and traitor until he wept. Overcome by the intensity of his emotions, she licked his tears, experiencing a visceral rush of colors and sensations. She then kissed him, expecting to taste his feelings, but realized mid-kiss that the overwhelming surge of 'love' she felt was actually her own. The chapter concludes with Sim Ah-ryeon accepting that her obsession and desire were genuine love, directed at a man who remained a fascinating, unreadable mystery to everyone else.

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